I Am Not A Super Hero

I wrote this last year but thought it was worth the share again …

 

Sometimes I take a lot on by myself. While I don’t overtly think I can handle everything on my own or am some sort of super hero, I sure can act like it. I know that I need people, but sometimes it’s hard to tell them that. It’s much easier to get mad at them later when I struggled through it myself and they didn’t read my mind.

At a young age I had to do things by myself and for myself. This made me good at juggling many things and taking on a lot of responsibility; it also helped me to be better at taking care of others. However, this made it hard to be vulnerable and rely on others. When I became a Christian I not only learned how to rely more on God but more on the people He placed in my life who want to support me. The hard part then became being strong enough to be vulnerable and ask for what I need. When I am secure in God’s love for me, I’m not worried about protecting myself from pain, disappointment or heartbreak. Instead I am given the strength to reach out and be vulnerable.

1 John 4:18 (NIV)18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

Sometimes I don’t even realize I need help. I can feel overwhelmed or anxious and simply try to push through it. It’s a lot easier to share with a friend after the fact, “Look it was bad but this is how I handled it.” However, I am learning that there are times in my life that I need to face things with people by my side not meeting me on the other end.

Ecc4:9 (NLT) Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed.

Ecclesiastes 4:12 Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

This week I prepared for a work trip have felt anxious–more so than usual. I was afraid to fail. When I travel I sometimes fear being forgotten or of missing out on something while I am away. In these moments I need to tell my friends how much I need them and what I need from them while away. A text saying, “I’m feeling anxious” is not enough. I have to pick up the phone, call them and say the words, “I need you. This is what I am feeling and this is what would help me.” I may be a doer and look like I have it all under control but none of us have it under control all the time. This is why we need God, his grace and each other. At any given moment in life we all need help. It may feel scary and vulnerable but that feeling passes and is replaced with a deeper bond of friendship and love when I allow people in. My vulnerability showed my friends that I am not as strong as they think I am and that is OK. No, I am not a super hero and I need them as much as they need me. It is in my weakness that God is glorified.

2 Corinthians 12:9 (NIV) 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

“We neither suffer alone nor conquer alone nor go off into eternity alone. In Him we are inseparable; therefore, we are free to be fruitfully alone whenever we please, because wherever we go, whatever we suffer, whatever happens to us, we are united with those we love in Him because we are united with Him.” – Thomas Merton, No Man Is An Island

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